Haiti(After)

I've been back from Haiti for 6 months now and it's taken me this long to write about it. It's taken me this long because I'm still not done learning or growing from my experience. I learned a lot there, more then I ever thought I would in a week. It's been a roller coaster of emotions since being back. It hasn't been easy and I don't know if life will ever be "easy" again. I'm constantly aware of luxuries I have and what that means. I'm constantly aware of how much more I have here. I'm constantly aware of how different life is.

Going to the store is not an easy task anymore. In fact, when I go, I find myself getting angry and upset. It's hard to look at how many different options we have for things. Why does there need to be 10 different kinds of bread? Why does there have to be 10 different brands of the same cereal? I just don't get it.

Why must people feel the need to waste water? Why does it take 20 minutes to take a shower? Why do you have to leave the water running while you brush your teeth? We are so blessed that the water that comes out of our faucets is clean. We can drink and use this water without having to worry about getting sick from it. It amazes me how much people just don't get.

Now, with all that being said I understand that sometimes you don't get until you experience it. Before I went to Haiti I had an idea of how good we have it but now that I've experienced it, I understand it so much more.  I understand the differences and I understand what it means to be starving and what it means to just be hungry.

It's hard being back in the states even though it has been 6 months. I'm learning how to be thankful for what I have but to not take it for granted. I want to go back, I want to go back so badly. I want to go love on some kids and help in whatever way I can. I just have to wait for God to give me the go ahead.

Haiti(Before)

I leave for Haiti in 2 days. That's it. Just 2 days. I'm overwhelmed with the amount of emotions I am feeling right now. I'm so uber excited but at the same time I'm so uberly nervous. What am I doing? I'm going into this with absolutely no idea what I will be doing. It's a real opportunity to follow God and just go where He needs me. I'll be doing my best to live how they live down there, as much as I'm allowed to anyway. We will actually be given lots of luxuries down there which I'm not too excited about right now, but we'll see if that changes while I'm down there. I'm excited to see what God has in store. He must have huge plans because it's not like me to just go with a bunch of people I don't know, especially out of the country. I can't believe the time as already come and I'm packing and saying goodbye to people tomorrow and then just chilling out at home on Thursday. ahh! My eyes are going to be opened wide while down there. My heart has been down there since September and it's just waiting for my body to catch up. My heart is already breaking for the people down there and I have to be cautious of my giving/helping as well. Oh man. This trip is going to change me forever. This is just the beginning too.