I am...I strive for

~I am breakable
~I am good with kids
~I am a hard worker
~I am a good friend
~I am a good listener
~I am a child of God
~I am loud and proud
~I am shy
~I am growing in my relationship with God

*I strive to be the best me
*I strive to live for God
*I strive to be a light for God
*I strive to share the Good News
*I strive to get good grades
*I strive to be more confident
*I strive to learn how to say no
*I strive to let people love me


Feel free to add on...or don't. Whatever floats your boat.

Winter Break

As much as I love being home and seeing everyone again...I'm ready to head back to school. I miss all my friends. My life is now up there. Even though I'm not ready to start classes again, I wouldn't mind hanging out with everyone again. Another month of sitting at home...yeah..that's going to be interesting. Good thing Tracy and I still have a few episodes of Biggest Loser left...and Car and I will get to be watch Pretty Little Liars soon...and the guys at the Toboggan run are pretty awesome. I don't know....we'll see how things go...maybe next winter I'll choose to stay up there.

Finals Finals Finals

Who knew I would actually get to this point in my life where I have to legit study for finals?!?!? It's crazy to think that I had my last day of my first semester of college classes today. I have a 4 day weekend and finals start on Wed. night for me. Really?!?!? What?!?!? Where did the time go?!?!? I feel as if we are still in October. Christmas is right around the corner and I can't believe it. Yay for me though. I'm so proud of myself.

No One

I really needs to stop having this "I'm good enough for no one" attitude. I need to start expecting compliments from people and realize that more times then not they are true. And it is possible that I'm the person they say I am. I can't let one person affect me for the rest of my life.

Do Hard Things

So I've been going through a book with my one of my friends and it's called Do Hard Things and it goes through and talks about going outside of the social norm and your comfort zone. It's really taught me a lot and it's reinforced things that I've already known. Today we discussed these 4 questions:

• What areas of my life do I not care about that I know I should care about?
• In what areas have I fallen short of God's standards and my own potential?
• In what areas have I settled for just getting by when I know I could do better if I really tried?
• In what areas have I decided that things "will always be this way" without ever putting in the kind of effort that really changes things?

I would love to have a conversation with anyone that would like to. Just let me know. =]

I really enjoyed going through these questions and it really made me analyze my relationship with God and how sometimes I really undermine His power. It's really reminded me that God is always walking with me and He's always got His hand on my shoulder guiding me through life.

Best Friend

So, I've noticed that everyone here at school has that best friend connection with somebody...except me. I know I have a lot of friends and I know I have a huge support system, but the only thing I lack up here is a best friend.

Sure I have Amy, Kayla, Carley and Kerri as my best friends, but they all have others as their best friends and it sucks. Amy and Kayla were best friends long before I came into the picture. Carley now has Kate and Kerri has her roommates seeing as how she's a senior this year. It just sucks not knowing who I'm going to room with next year or not really having a friend that I don't always feel like a third wheel with.

Emily and I have been getting a long better then ever before and I'm starting to get really sad that she's moving off campus next year. I would room with her again in a heartbeat. It sucks that everyone I would love to room with already have roommates. =[

It was such an easy transition at first, but when I started loosing my best friends from home it started to get harder and harder. And I had this talk with Amy and Kayla and they said they consider me just as much their best friend as they consider themselves best friends. Which was really nice to hear and it helped quite a bit, but it's still rough.

Maybe someone will come around next semester...who knows...

Why?

That's the only question I have....Why???