CHRISTmas

So, usually around Christmas I'm super excited and can't wait for it to get here. However, this year, I can wait. I don't really want Christmas to come. It's the first Christmas with out my brother. That in itself is going to be an extreme struggle. Then to top it off, I'm sick. ughh. My mom's side of the family pretty much hates me so I'm not looking forward to Christmas eve, and Christmas day is going to be horrible because my mom will just sit there and cry all day because I'm not good enough for her. ughhhh.