Mom

There are times when I tell myself I would be happier with out her in my life...but then who do I call mom, or when people ask me about her, what do I say? It's hard now to talk about her, I can't imagine what it's going to be like going off to school and having to tell people that I don't know my mom because we've never had a relationship even though we lived in the same house for 18 years. I've never thought about this before. I always pictured myself going off to school and not really talking to my mom again...but now I wonder if that's going to help at all or just make things worse.