CHRISTmas

So, usually around Christmas I'm super excited and can't wait for it to get here. However, this year, I can wait. I don't really want Christmas to come. It's the first Christmas with out my brother. That in itself is going to be an extreme struggle. Then to top it off, I'm sick. ughh. My mom's side of the family pretty much hates me so I'm not looking forward to Christmas eve, and Christmas day is going to be horrible because my mom will just sit there and cry all day because I'm not good enough for her. ughhhh.

Life=rough

So, these past two weeks have been nothing but bad. Last week I woke up feeling great! I was SO happy. Then at school my best gave me some really bad news. It pretty much ruined my entire day. I saw the worry, the pain, the uncertainty that I had experienced not that long before with my brother. I hated seeing someone I care about so much go through that. Tuesday, I had a lot going through my mind with my mom, and my friend, I just couldn't concentrate on anything else, and I was in constant prayer with God. Wed was a snow day and it was GREAT!!! I spent the day sledding with friends, then I got to hang out with the Mingos. yay!!! Then Thursday was back to reality and people at school were just being dumb and stupid. Friday my teacher totally criticized our cookies we frosted for a fundraiser when she wasn't even there to tell us how she wanted them done. ughh. Saturday was a fun day with the girls. Sunday I was just so frustrated with everything that had happened that week, that I was just in a bad mood. Then we went caroling with youth group, which was super fun, until we got back to church, then I gave myself a mild concussion. Awesome way to end a horrible week and start off a week. So, this week I've been dealing with that. One of my other good friends came to me with a problem that I've been trying to help her through, and I'm missing people like crazy. Life has just been so rough these past couple of weeks. Good thing God has everything under control and that every day is a new day!!