Do Hard Things

So I've been going through a book with my one of my friends and it's called Do Hard Things and it goes through and talks about going outside of the social norm and your comfort zone. It's really taught me a lot and it's reinforced things that I've already known. Today we discussed these 4 questions:

• What areas of my life do I not care about that I know I should care about?
• In what areas have I fallen short of God's standards and my own potential?
• In what areas have I settled for just getting by when I know I could do better if I really tried?
• In what areas have I decided that things "will always be this way" without ever putting in the kind of effort that really changes things?

I would love to have a conversation with anyone that would like to. Just let me know. =]

I really enjoyed going through these questions and it really made me analyze my relationship with God and how sometimes I really undermine His power. It's really reminded me that God is always walking with me and He's always got His hand on my shoulder guiding me through life.

Best Friend

So, I've noticed that everyone here at school has that best friend connection with somebody...except me. I know I have a lot of friends and I know I have a huge support system, but the only thing I lack up here is a best friend.

Sure I have Amy, Kayla, Carley and Kerri as my best friends, but they all have others as their best friends and it sucks. Amy and Kayla were best friends long before I came into the picture. Carley now has Kate and Kerri has her roommates seeing as how she's a senior this year. It just sucks not knowing who I'm going to room with next year or not really having a friend that I don't always feel like a third wheel with.

Emily and I have been getting a long better then ever before and I'm starting to get really sad that she's moving off campus next year. I would room with her again in a heartbeat. It sucks that everyone I would love to room with already have roommates. =[

It was such an easy transition at first, but when I started loosing my best friends from home it started to get harder and harder. And I had this talk with Amy and Kayla and they said they consider me just as much their best friend as they consider themselves best friends. Which was really nice to hear and it helped quite a bit, but it's still rough.

Maybe someone will come around next semester...who knows...

Why?

That's the only question I have....Why???

ER

Who would of thought that I would be in the ER more times in my first 2 months of college then ever before? This sucks!!! I don't mind needles most of the time but when they put that IV in me yesterday it was NOT good. It hurt SO bad and I really just wanted to scream. But I tried staying tough and only let out a few tears. As of right now my appendix is looking pretty good, just slightly swollen so we'll see what happens tomorrow when I go back in.

I really just want to be in my nice cozy bed back home. With my daddy near me to help me feel better. So far, I'm not really enjoying this whole college thing...