Crying

I hate to cry, absolutely hate it. In fact it's really rare for me to cry and it's even more rare for someone to see me cry. However lately I've been in the mood of I need to cry and I need to cry now. But I most definitely don't want to cry alone, I want someone to be there, I want someone to hold me, I want someone to tell me it's all going to be okay. But my issue is I don't feel like I can do that with anyone. I don't feel like I'm close enough to anyone anymore. I just don't know what to do anymore. I know God is there for me every minute of everyday and I'm so thankful and blessed for that. I've really learned to rely on Him but it would also be nice to have someone in the physical sense to help me out. I know I have to allow God to help me though this and I am. I just need someone. I just need to cry.